Remember when you were little and you would spend all Christmas Eve asking your parents when Santa was coming? All you wanted to do was go to bed so you could wake up and he would have come while you were asleep. Although sleep was always impossible for me. Every Christmas Eve we would open up ONE gift, it always was and still is a pair of matching pajamas. Seriously the best tradition. Then we would read Christmas stories together and my parents always read to us the story of our Savior's birth from Luke. Sometimes we would watch movies too. After putting out a giant plate of cookies for Santa and carrots for his reindeer, we would write one final note to Santa, I think it was our last minute way of sucking up to him. He always wrote us a note back and somehow I never put it together that my mom's handwriting and Santa's are eerily similar. Then your parents would help you get online to track Santa and when he got into Canada if you weren't in bed your parents told you that he was going to skip your house. I remember running into my room as fast as I could when I heard that. Back when we were little all of my sisters, yes all 5 of us, would all sleep in my bed together on Christmas Eve (we tried fitting 3 of us in a full last night and it DID NOT work). We would laugh and giggle and talk all night about what we were going to find that next morning. No one ever really got any sleep. Around 3 am one of us girls would wake all of us up yelling, SANTA CAME!! It was a fight to who could get into the family room fastest. I swear when I was little, the family room was sparkling. You could see the magic.
Now that I am older the magic is harder and harder to see. I still wake up around 3 just to go out and look, but the feeling is different. That is a fault all of my own. The magic of Christmas that I felt came from believing. Believing in something that is bigger than me. The magic of Christmas is not in the presents, but in His Presence. On our drive to the movie to watch Les Miserables tonight, my sister said to us, "it would be nice if Christmas were always on a Sunday, that way we wouldn't be able to forget about the real meaning of the season". This made me feel bad, because although I read in Luke last night before I went to bed, I haven't been very spiritual this season. I haven't been the serving, gift giving, magic spreading, loving person that I was when I was little. Believing that December is a magical time is no longer enough, there is an action that needs to take place. An action that I should have been acting upon all season long.
The world is in such a tragic place right now. Everyday something bad happens, lots of bad things happen. How many good things are happening? If we aren't the ones doing good, who is? It is our responsibility to serve others. The whole reason for our life here on earth is to try and become like our Father in Heaven. Our Father who is never lacking in love and charity. Our Father has blessed us more than we will ever know.
One of our greatest blessings is our families. When I think about my family I am truly overwhelmed with the love and gratitude I have for them. My parents have ALWAYS been there. Through thick and thin, good and bad, ugly and REALLY ugly. My sisters have always loved me. Even when we punch each other in the face we still love each other. A very very dear loved one of mine's health is deteriorating, and it is breaking my heart to watch it happen. There is nothing I can do, but love and serve. I know one day I am going to lose him, maybe not in the next few months. or even the next year, but some time. How blessed I am to know that we will be together again one day. There are many people in Heaven that I would love to meet or see again. I am so happy that our Savior died for each and every one of us, so that we may all return to live with our loved ones again someday. My life would not be the same without my knowledge of Jesus Christ. He is the greatest gift of all.
Today is my dad's birthday! I bought him a tie for his birthday. I know you are all thinking that is the lamest gift ever, BUT its a really pretty tie.... AND it goes beautifully with the new suit we got him for Christmas. :) I really am not that lame I promise! Birthday's are a big deal to me. I want everyone to feel super special one their big day and I try to be extra nice and serve them all day. As I was pondering tonight I asked myself what did I do today, or all season long to celebrate the birth of Christ? Didly squat, that's what. I am shaking my head at myself right now. I guess now is the time to start celebrating some birthdays. Now is the time to start spreading holiday cheer. Now is the time to stop feeling sorry for myself, or comparing my life to everybody else's. My life is actually pretty fantastic. I live in a cute apartment with awesome roommates, I have the opportunity to go to college, I have not only one but 3 amazing jobs that I love, my car runs wonderfully. My friends are the best, I have the gospel in my life, and there are no words to describe the family I undeservingly have been given.
I hope your holiday season has been filled with the spirit of love, joy, charity, and the magic of Christmas has been felt in your hearts. If it hasn't, it isn't too late to feel it. It's never too late to spread a little cheer. Merry Christmas everyone! I love you all!!
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
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Sunday, October 14, 2012
Speechless: not capable of being expressed in words
This is one of those times where I have a million things going on in my head and I cannot for the life of me talk about anything. One of these days I'm going to explode, seriously.
Usually I can get on here and vent about life's problems, but not today. So i decided to post a bunch of pictures from the last 3 months. None of them get captions. sorry. But that's just how its gonna be. AND they are in a random order. :) But since a picture is worth a thousand words this is basically like reading a small book. Best blogger in the world = Ashley. Congrats to me.
Super sarcastic, sorry.
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Things change and people change and life doesn't stop for anybody.
When my parents first finished their basement they let us girls pick out the carpet for our bedrooms. I was a super girly little 4 year old so of course I picked bright pink carpet. Yes, I know my parents rock. I also had flowered wallpaper, pillows, & bedspread. My childhood bedroom was very colorful, and I loved it! When I got into high school my room turned into a shrine for all of my cheer crap. It was then a colorful shrine with red, black, and white uniforms and pom poms and pictures and I'm sure it was super tacky but I honestly didn't care. I loved it.
I went home this weekend to go boating with my family and walked downstairs to my old bedroom to discover that my old bedroom is gone. I knew Katie was moving down there and I knew she had big plans to change it, but for some reason it was still quite a shock to see it. My wallpaper was gone, my bedding was gone, my pictures and cheer stuff was in a box upstairs, and my bright pink carpet was being ripped up. The entire room was bare; ready for new carpet, new paint, new pictures. Change, my room that was no longer mine was changing.
That night me and my sisters slept out on the tramp and as I was laying there I started reflecting on all the changes my life has had the last couple months. Some changes have been hard, some fun, some exciting, surprising, and sad. For example, I got contacts Friday! After 6 years of glasses I finally decided I was sick of things not being in focus. I was sick of sitting in sacrament meeting and not being able to see what number the hymn was. Or ALWAYS having to wear glasses in class. I like my glasses but it was time for a change....
Danielle and Chris had their 4th baby! Wayce Darin Hawkes was born on April 9, 2012. He was 6 lbs 4 oz and 18 inches long! He was blessed by his dad on June 3rd. Love him sooo much!On May 5th Amanda graduated from Utah State with a Bachelors in Social Work. She then moved out and got a job down in Ogden at the Division of Child & Family Services. She really likes her job. I hate that we no longer live together. We lived together for 3 years after I graduated high school and I loved it. I don't know what I would have done without her those first couple years of college. I definitely took her for granted. She was my best friend and was always there for me when I needed her, even when I wasn't there for her. She has been an amazing sister and friend.
Bailey graduated high school on May 30th. She is moving to Logan at the end of summer and I am so excited to have a sister back over here! We aren't living together but she is only 2 blocks away so I can steal her clothes anytime. :) I hope I can be there for Bay the way Amanda was there for me through all my hard times.
Every year without fail comes the end of another dance year. I finished my first year as a dance teacher. Teaching was hard, it was stressful, and it was a lot of work and I loved every second of it. I have missed my girls this summer and can't wait to start back up! I also got a 3rd job. Yeah I know I am crazy. But I now teach gymnastics at High Point at the Sports Academy. That makes three coaching/teaching jobs. Fall semester might be super crazy! Katie finished her first year at Infinity. She improved so much this year and did amazing at all her competitions and review. I am super proud of all the hard work she has put into dancing. I am so sad she won't be dancing at Infinity anymore but am excited for her to start her new adventure as a High-Stepper.
These are my new roommates! The end of the school year all my previous roommates moved on to different things and left me needing ALL new roommates! I was quite nervous to live with new girls. Besides Amanda, I had lived with Steph and Courtney for 2 years so I didn't know what it would be like with these girls! But I love them all and it has been a blast! Pathetic that we don't have a picture of all 5 of us.
Obviously things have changed. But that's life. My life, constantly changing. without it I wouldn't grow.
Obviously things have changed. But that's life. My life, constantly changing. without it I wouldn't grow.
Summer has been a ton of fun so far and I am only half way through! July & August are going to be crazy and I can't wait! Hopefully I will post some stuff here and there, I'm trying to not be a slacker anymore :)
Saturday, March 24, 2012
It is absolutely crazy how fast time goes by. Exactly 3 years ago today my sister Danielle her husband Chris had a still-born little boy. She was about 8 months along and it devastated my family. But it also brought my family closer in a way that nothing else ever could.
God has a reason for allowing things to happen. We may never understand his wisdom, but we simply have to trust his will.
“Joseph Smith taught the doctrine that the infant child that was laid away in death would come up in the resurrection as a child; and, pointing to the mother of a lifeless child, he said to her: ‘You will have the joy, the pleasure, and satisfaction of nurturing this child, after its resurrection, until it reaches the full stature of its spirit.’ There is restitution, there is growth, there is development, after the resurrection from death. I love this truth. It speaks volumes of happiness, of joy and gratitude to my soul. Thank the Lord he has revealed these principles to us.” And so we should understand, in the words of Joseph Smith, that “the only difference between the old and young dying is, one lives longer in heaven [the spirit world] and eternal light and glory than the other, and is freed a little sooner from this miserable wicked world. Notwithstanding all this glory, we for a moment lose sight of it, and mourn the loss, but we do not mourn as those without hope.”
-Dale C. Mouritsen
(to read more of this talk click here)
I am so grateful for the gospel and the knowledge that one day I will get to meet my little nephew. I am also grateful for all the blessings that my family received from this trial. Riggin is definitely a blessing to my family, an angel to watch over us.
Happy Birthday Riggin!!
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
My BEAUTIFULLY TALENTED roommate Steph bought a new camera.
This is how we spend our free time :)
For school Steph had to create a movie poster and I was lucky enough to be her model.
This costume was made in ONE DAY, Thanks to the DI, Walmart, and a hot glue gun.
Not even kidding.
We had to rip it off of me because it literally was hot glued on.
Make-up: by Me :)
Hair: by Steph. Talented I know!
The hat, Steph made it out of a plastic cup, poster board, fabric, and a hot glue gun.