First off, I know that I am a horrible blogger.I know that it has been 9 months since my last post. I will probably never be good. Oh well. I am having too much fun right now to stop and blog every week. This stuff is seriously time consuming because i'm a perfectionist. I tried really hard to post all summer about the amazing summer I was having... probably the best one yet. BUT it is so much easier to just post pictures to FB and call it good. Although, the super super fun adventures I had... we don't have pictures of because it was either dark or involved water. So trust me when I say my summer was crazy awesome. Thank you friends and family! anyway the real reason for this post....
So I graduate college this semester... kind of a big deal right?
Yeah I think so.
Such a big deal that I am 100% of the time freaking out trying to decide what to do.
I am loving the advice I'm getting though:
"Don't leave logan you will never get married if you do"
--- oh great, most the boys left are younger than me
"Wait until your husband finds a job, then find a job wherever that is"
--- good idea except I am not married
"You've been in Logan this long and still aren't married so you should probably move"
--- was this one an insult?
"Get a job so you can start paying for your car insurance"
--- this one obviously came from my wise father. Thanks Dad.
all of this advice, minus my father's because I know he couldn't care one way or another if I was married, all has to deal with me being single. Neato. Thanks for the constant reminder.
anyway. To look for jobs in Logan, or move to Hawaii ;) that is the question!
(Yes mom I have been praying about it)
Pros to Staying: I love Logan and all of its activities, I love my friends here, I LOVE being close to my family. If I find a job here I get to keep my director job at the Rec Center which is a sweet job. Living in Logan is cheap. I have heard from tons of people that single wards in other places suck and I adore my bishopric and ward.
Cons to staying: Jobs in Logan don't pay well usually. I might not actually find a big girl job. I have already been here for 4 years and maybe feel that I need to move on?? (still deciding if that is how I really feel or not) I am a little bit over the college life so if I stay will I be stuck in it?
Pros to moving: I will get to meet new people. I could find a higher paying job. Change is always good. I will have to try harder to put myself out there, which I should be doing now...whatever.
Cons to moving: It is SCARY! I don't know where I will go or if I will make friends or if I will hate it and be sad I left all my awesome friends in Logan. I could potentially be far away from family and that would suck. I don't want to move alone because then I will have no one and seeing how being alone is my biggest fear in life I am struggling with doing that. I might not find a job even if I do want to leave.
I need to decide soon where it is that I want to be, even though I am sure I will make a plan and it will change the second I tell anyone. If anyone has advice sent it my way... mostly because I am getting a kick out of the advice I am getting. Maybe I will just move back into the basement at my parent's house :) since I just LOVE Tremonton! Get ready for me mom and dad!
This is the one time in life I will have to world at my feet. I can go anywhere, do anything, be whoever I want to be. But the world is seeming quite scary at the moment...
Oh, the Places You'll Go!
by Dr. Seuss
Today is your day.
You're off to Great Places!
You're off and away!
You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes
You can steer yourself
any direction you choose.
You're on your own. And you know what you know.
And YOU are the guy who'll decide where to go.
You'll look up and down streets. Look 'em over with care.
About some you will say, "I don't choose to go there."
With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet,
you're too smart to go down any not-so-good street.
And you may not find any
you'll want to go down.
In that case, of course,
you'll head straight out of town.
It's opener there
in the wide open air.
Out there things can happen
and frequently do
to people as brainy
and footsy as you.
And when things start to happen,
don't worry. Don't stew.
Just go right along.
You'll start happening too.
THE PLACES YOU'LL GO!
You'll be on your way up!
You'll be seeing great sights!
You'll join the high fliers
who soar to high heights.
You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed.
You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead.
Wherever you fly, you'll be the best of the best.
Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.
Except when you don't
Because, sometimes, you won't.
I'm sorry to say so
but, sadly, it's true
can happen to you.
You can get all hung up
in a prickle-ly perch.
And your gang will fly on.
You'll be left in a Lurch.
You'll come down from the Lurch
with an unpleasant bump.
And the chances are, then,
that you'll be in a Slump.
And when you're in a Slump,
you're not in for much fun.
is not easily done.
You will come to a place where the streets are not marked.
Some windows are lighted. But mostly they're darked.
A place you could sprain both your elbow and chin!
Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in?
How much can you lose? How much can you win?
And IF you go in, should you turn left or right...
or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite?
Or go around back and sneak in from behind?
Simple it's not, I'm afraid you will find,
for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.
You can get so confused
that you'll start in to race
down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space,
headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
The Waiting Place...
...for people just waiting.
Waiting for a train to go
or a bus to come, or a plane to go
or the mail to come, or the rain to go
or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow
or waiting around for a Yes or a No
or waiting for their hair to grow.
Everyone is just waiting.
Waiting for the fish to bite
or waiting for wind to fly a kite
or waiting around for Friday night
or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake
or a pot to boil, or a Better Break
or a string of pearls, or a pair of pants
or a wig with curls, or Another Chance.
Everyone is just waiting.
That's not for you!
Somehow you'll escape
all that waiting and staying.
You'll find the bright places
where Boom Bands are playing.
With banner flip-flapping,
once more you'll ride high!
Ready for anything under the sky.
Ready because you're that kind of a guy!
Oh, the places you'll go! There is fun to be done!
There are points to be scored. there are games to be won.
And the magical things you can do with that ball
will make you the winning-est winner of all.
Fame! You'll be famous as famous can be,
with the whole wide world watching you win on TV.
Except when they don't.
Because, sometimes, they won't.
I'm afraid that some times
you'll play lonely games too.
Games you can't win
'cause you'll play against you.
Whether you like it or not,
Alone will be something
you'll be quite a lot.
And when you're alone, there's a very good chance
you'll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.
There are some, down the road between hither and yon,
that can scare you so much you won't want to go on.
But on you will go
though the weather be foul
On you will go
though your enemies prowl
On you will go
though the Hakken-Kraks howl
Onward up many
a frightening creek,
though your arms may get sore
and your sneakers may leak.
On and on you will hike
and I know you'll hike far
and face up to your problems
whatever they are.
You'll get mixed up, of course,
as you already know.
You'll get mixed up
with many strange birds as you go.
So be sure when you step.
Step with care and great tact
and remember that Life's
a Great Balancing Act.
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.
And never mix up your right foot with your left.
And will you succeed?
Yes! You will, indeed!
(98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed.)
KID, YOU'LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!
be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray
or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O'Shea,
you're off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So...get on your way!